I Am Not My Hair

March 14th, 2006

Friends, I have heard this song before (thanks to my friend and client Brian White)… but today, it touched me more than ever. I began to cry thinking about how we have allowed this society to define us by our appearance… define us by our hair! I am so thankful that we have found a way to take back our identity and celebrate what we have, naturally. It is not a testimony of one particular type of natural hairstyle, it is a testimony to the journey, the process of taking a moment everyday to smile at my refection in the mirror — exactly the way God made it!

If you haven’t viewed it yet, her video is a MUST SEE!
You can view it and listen to the remix by going here:
http://www.mp3.com/albums/20083596/summary.html

Video: Scroll down and click on the green “Play”
Song: Click on the blue “Preview” button
Lyrics: I pasted the lyrics for you below

Don’t forget to write me back at carole@coilsncurls.com with your reaction! :)

Song: I Am Not My Hair
Artist: India.Arie

[Akon: Verse 1]
See I can kinda recall a lil ways back
Small tryin’ to ball always been black
And my hair I tried it all I even went flat
Had a gummy curled on top and all that crap (o oh)
Just tryin’ to be appreciated
Nappy headed brothers never had no ladies
Never hit the barber shop real quick
Had a mini lil twist and it drove her crazy (crazy)
Then I couldn’t get no job
Cuz corporate wouldn’t hire no dreadlocks
Then I thought about my dogs on the block
Kinda understand why they chose to steal and rob
Was it the hair that got me this far?
All these girls these cribs these cars?
I hate to say it but it seem so flawed
Success didn’t come ’til I cut it all off

[India.Arie: Verse 1]
Little girl with the press and curl
Age eight I got a Jheri curl
Thirteen and I got a relaxer
I was a source of so much laughter
At fifteen when it all broke off
Eighteen and I went all natural
February two thousand and two
I went on and did
What I had to do
Because it was time to change my life
To become the women that I am inside
Ninety-seven dreadlocks all gone
I looked in the mirror
For the first time and saw that HEY….

[Chorus]
I am not my hair
I am not this skin
I am not your expectations no no
I am not my hair
I am not this skin
I am a soul that lives within

[India.Arie: Verse 2]
Good hair means curls and waves
Bad hair means you look like a slave
At the turn of the century
It’s time for us to redefine who we be
You can shave it off
Like a South African beauty
Or get in on lock
Like Bob Marley
You can rock it straight
Like Oprah Winfrey
If it’s not what’s on your head
It’s what’s underneath and say HEY….

[Chorus]

[Akon: Verse 2]
Who cares if you don’t like that
With nothin’ to lose postin’ with the wave cap
And the cops wanna harass cuz I got waves
Ain’t see nothin’ like that in all my days (o oh)
And you gotta change all this feelings
They be judging one another by their appearance
Yes India, i feel ya girl
Now go ‘head talk to the rest of the world cuz…

[Bridge]
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Does the way I wear my hair make me a better person?
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Does the way I wear my hair make me a better friend? Oooh
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
Does the way I wear my hair determine my integrity?
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
I am expressing my creativity..
(Whoa, whoa, whoa)

[India.Arie: Verse 3]
Breast Cancer and Chemotherapy
Took away her crown and glory
She promised God if she was to survive
She would enjoy everyday of her life ooh
On national television
Her diamond eyes are sparkling
Bald headed like a full moon shining
Singing out to the whole wide world like HEY…

[Chorus til fade]

My Song

January 5th, 2007

A few days ago, I woke up in the early AM (why do so many thoughts come during this time?) and the following piece came pouring out. After all these years of “being natural”, I thought that I had exorcized all the dark childhood memories from my past. But this one was still there. I have told this story to my clients many times before. I just left out the part about my reaction in that classroom to those girls. I never allowed myself to really “feel” the incident. I’ve recently posted it on Google Video. I hope you like it :) Please let me know your thoughts around this piece after you have finished reviewing. Here is your link.

(Related Post:  My Song - Live Performance)

“Irreplaceable” is Replaceable

December 6th, 2006

I’m both lovin’ and hatin’ Beyonce’s new song “Irreplaceable”.
I know you’ll understand how weak I think the chorus is:

“You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be be here in a minute - baby”

After I heard it, I said to myself, ‘Beyonce! You are better than that,
com’on gurl!’
How you gonna rhyme “in a minute” with “in a minute”? And yet, I can’t
get the song out of my head. I like it…. so I came up with a
compromise. From now on when I sing it in my head, I use the following
new configuration of words. It is the only way I can get through it :)

“You must not know about me
You must not know about me
If I want another you, I can get it.
Matter fact, he’ll be here in a minute - baby”

Feel me?
~Carole

“We need to start respecting life.”

January 6th, 2007

Those were the words that John Lynch of the Denver Broncos shared at the funeral of Darrent Williams. I had a client this morning that was very much in grief about this situation. We both talked for over an hour about how senseless this crime was for Darrent and his family. For those who don’t know, 24 year old, cornerback Darrent Williams of the Denver Broncos was pronounced dead at a local hospital after being shot early Monday morning just following a New Years party.

Yesterday, I held several appointments with his teammates to retighten and freshen their hair before the funeral. Of course these men were feeling something that no one ever wants to feel. The pain of losing a close friend is something I have only tasted a few times in my life and each time the pill was bitter and almost impossible to swallow. I always think to myself that death is something we should all be preparing to face, but yet we always avoid.

I found it fascinating how each of these men, in the face of this horrible circumstance acted as though it was sad but… “That is life”. I am sorry, but a senseless gang shooting is not “life”. Some of these men I call friends. So, it hurt me deeply to see each one processing this whole thing as I did their hair. I said to one friend, “I am so sorry about your teammate. How are you taking it? Are you ok?” He said back, “Yeah, its tough. But I’m cool.” When he said that, I snapped back – uncontrollably I might add – I snapped, “Common man! You are acting like this is “old hat”. Like it happens everyday.” He said, “Carole, it does happen every day. This is not the 1st, 2nd or 3rd time that something like this has happened in my life and it won’t be the last.” I looked at him and said, “You know… it is ok to feel emotion. To just FEEL… something… anything for this one.” He stopped me right there and asked to change the subject.

In that instant I asked myself a question, have we come to a place in our culture where it is not okay for a black man to allow himself to FEEL pain, hurt, or sadness? Do we expect and teach our young men to “buck up”, and be so tough that they can’t even pause to feel the pain of death, loss, or grief? It is something to think about. What is the message we are sending to these big, bad, tough athletes about their own contribution to the world – to us? They are our heroes (dare I say) gods to some, and they cannot show weakness even in the most “real” situations. They have to keep the image alive. I have even seen some men stifle back laughter because it showed vulnerability.

But to live is to feel. Feel something about anything. If we remove that honor, that gift from our personality are we denying ourselves the very essence of life? If so, as in the case with Darrent, is it then impossible to think that a man can argue with a person in a club and then conclude that shooting that person dead is the only logical solution to that argument? Why not – we are “bad mofos”. We don’t feel we act! Are all these behaviors connected? I am starting to think there is a link - and I’m sad about it. “We need to start respecting life.” Every part of life… emotion and all.

Things You Didn’t Know About Carole

January 6th, 2007

Check out the twirly bird! In her prime, Carole was a world class roller skater, placing in Nationals multiple times! You go, Carole!

I love ya,

Chris

Carole Skating Carole Skating

White-&-Nerdy

September 29th, 2006
OMG! I found myself watching this video over and over again wondering why I was laughing so hard. NOW I KNOW!
He looks like my dad! It is a wonder I was even born… my dad is so white-&-nerdy!
My Dad: My Dad at age 19
Video Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-xEzGIuY7kw&eurl

I love ya dad!
Carole

Good & Bad Hair

January 6th, 2007

My aunt sent these to me and I have no words!

Boondocks Cartoon
They are hard to read… so here’s the verbiage:

Frame #1:
Brunette: So you really couldn’t tell I was part-black when we met?

Blond: Nope.
Frame #2:

Brunette: Really? Not at all?

Blond: I don’t even think about it

Frame #3:

Brunette: Hmmm…

Frame #4:

Blond: I just figured you were having a REALLY bad hair day.

Boondocks Cartoon

Frame #1:
Female: Hey, Huey. What’s that in your hair?

Male: It’s an Afro pick. Its for people with Afros.
Frame #2:

Male: Would you like to borrow it?
Female: NO! Very funny, Huey.

Frame #3:

Femal: HMMMPH.

Frame #4:

She then feels through her hair.

Frame #5:

Male: You SURE?
Female: NO!

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My hope is that there is a positive message about loving your natural hair at the end of the series. But I fear that is too much to ask.

Dreamgirls

November 22nd, 2006

In preparation for Jennifer Hudson’s “Breakout Performance” in the upcoming Dreamgirls movie, I did a little research on the “And I am tellin’ you” song. Here are a few performances of note. (As you can see, I couldn’t get enough of this song! :) )

By the end of this note…

You, and you, and you, you’re gonna love me!
~Carole
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Miss Jennifer Holiday, 1982 Tony Awards - “And I’m Tellin’ You”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sq4uc9b2s1o
More Recent: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uqt9mfcg7cQ&mode=related&search=

Bianca Ryan - “And I’m Tellin’ You”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lUlFnwQuRfg&mode=related&search=

Von - “And I’m Tellin’ You”
(Not sure who this is - Honestly, made me a little uncomfortable to watch. But sounds good.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PW898PqcTTE&NR

Miss Whitney Houston - “And I’m Tellin’ You”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ULqp3tw3g3U&mode=related&search=

Random Guy: And I Am Telling You… I Should Be Workin’
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0EVzHrliNxU&mode=related&search=
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More versions with Jennifer Holiday:

Miss Jennifer Holiday @ The White House - “And I’m Tellin’ You”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtlMUbxyT0U&mode=related&search=

(another) Miss Jennifer Holiday - “And I’m Tellin’ You”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m-K0gkYplZ0&mode=related&search=

(yet another) Miss Jennifer Holiday - “And I’m Tellin’ You”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xtQBNnOYEJI&mode=related&search=

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In case you haven’t got enough of Miss Jennifer Holiday (who could?)
Here are some more performances:

Jennifer Holiday - His Eye Is On The Sparrow Part.1 (1986)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tE3QOnR0QWI

Jennifer Holiday - His Eye Is On The Sparrow Part.2 (1986)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHzDRjUvmWU&mode=related&search=

Jennifer Holiday sings I’m changing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xdwm1vrdVFI&mode=related&search=

Divorce Court and Judge Mable (This is disturbing)

July 31st, 2006

Thanks DeEbra for sending this to me.
While I agree that there is a major problem with the way “the-powers-that-be” view us and our hair… I also think there is a problem with the way many of US view our own hair. She states during her press conference “Because of my genetics (short, curly, hair) which requires the use of chemicals and/or a hot pressing comb to straighten and curlers to style. It cannot be styled by a wash, blow dry and set.” This statement perpetuates the problem. If we don’t honor ourselves and we continue to see the grade of our hair as a disability… why should “they” feel any differently?
In essence, we are trying to enlighten others on a concept of natural acceptance that we have not yet embraced.
Carole

——– Original Message ——–
Judge Mable

Subject: Divorce Court and Judge Mable (This is disturbing)…but not surprising…
This is beyond ridiculous on so many levels!
‘Divorce Court’ Judge Mablean Ephriam Discusses Details of Recent Separation from Show
LOS ANGELES–Popular television “Divorce Court” Judge Mablean Ephriam held a press conference at the Los Angeles Sentinel discussing details of recent separation from show. Judge Mablean Ephriam Statement:

Good morning. Thank you all for coming. I called this press conference today to address the issue of my departure from Fox Television as the Judge of Divorce Court. It is true. I will no longer be the Judge of Divorce Court as of the Fall Season, 2006. However, it is not true that I “decided to step down after seven years”.
The truth is that Fox and I were unable to reach an agreement, after several months of negotiations. I was willing to stay. Fox was unwilling to pay.
After seven years of a successful show run, the deal Fox offered me was substantially less than all of the other court show judges. Though I made several offers of reduction from my initial demand, in an effort to reach a settlement, Fox remained firm in its “low-ball offer” and finally, its “take- or -leave it offer” which contained a very small increase from its initial position, coupled with some other unreasonable demands. Fox took the position that in order to receive this small increase (which was still unequal); there would be “significant production changes”. I simply requested equal pay for equal work. Is this too much to ask?
The most unacceptable demand to me was when Fox said, “There will be no changes in the current hairstyle to avoid time consuming issues regarding her hair,” I found this to be offensive. The requirement also comes very close to a violation, if it does not in fact violate, the Fair Employment Practices Act. An employer cannot demand one to wear a particular hairstyle unless it directly affects or impacts the employee’s ability to perform his or her employment duties. My hairstyle does not meet this criteria, it is, however, a racial and ethnic issue. Suddenly, after seven years of a show that has run neck- in- neck with the other top rated court shows, why is my hair an issue. Why, I ask? Because of my ethnicity - African American, Black, Negro, whatever term you prefer to use. Because of my genetics (short, curly, hair) which requires the use of chemicals and/or a hot pressing comb to straighten and curlers to style. It cannot be styled by a wash, blow dry and set. Therefore, in Fox’s opinion, it is a time consuming issue. I wore a short hairstyle which was my own hair. Due to a misapplication of a chemical process, I lost a substantial amount of hair in season six. Out of my desire to maintain continuity, and the image I had created (for the last five years), I elected to wear a wig last year for continuity. Had Fox asked me to maintain a short hairstyle for continuity and for image, it would have been a different issue. But they are saying I must continue to wear the wig because that would expedite the hair styling process. However, my hair has now grown. I had not yet decided what hairstyle I would wear for season eight. If I were to accept their demands, I would have been unable to make that decision.
I therefore ask the question, when will Fox and the rest of America accept our cultural differences as African Americans and embrace us with all of our different hairstyles, hair textures, hair color, skin color, skin differences, whatever it may be? We take the time to learn about them, to learn about the different cultures in our society. They however have still chosen to neglect us, to disrespect us, and refuse to see us. We are still the invisible person. The fact that it takes more time to style my hair than my Caucasian sisters, in general, should not be an issue. What is more interesting about this demand is that I have never caused time to be an issue because of my hair. I have been conscious and aware of the fact that it does take more time to style my hair. Therefore, I set my call time earlier than any of the other staff to assure that I was ready in time for the schedule. More importantly, I had the chemical work done off the set at my expense. The only thing that had to be done on set was the pressing and styling. It has worked for seven years. There were several other demands, which in my opinion would diminish the quality of the show.
Tape seven shows per day (sometimes eight), instead of six. In meeting with Fox executives early this season, we had discussed seven shows. I indicated at that time that I could not do this effectively and produce quality shows. Divorce is a very emotional issue. For me, when I am handling these shows it’s not about entertainment, it’s about making life changing differences in the lives of those standing before me. As well as ultimately the viewers. Divorce has a lot of issues and you see them on Divorce Court, but they affect all of us race, color, creed, regardless of economic status. The issues that we addressed on Divorce Court affects America.
No vacation time during tape schedule. My national church convocation in November is the only vacation I take during tape season. Will I now not be allowed to observe my religious practice? “This was non-negotiable for me. I believe this infringes on my freedom of religious belief? The other times-off from taping were promotional appearances. These I did at the request of the civic groups, schools, churches, women groups, and non-profit organizations such as the Tom Joyner Foundation Fantastic Voyage, which benefits Historically Black Colleges and Universities (HBCU’s) based on my celebrity status. These were engagements which came by my publicist, personal assistant, and me. They promoted DIVORCE COURT. It was work, not vacation. More importantly, the majority of them were done on weekends, or nights and did not interfere with the taping of Divorce Court schedule. However, FOX did not appreciate this and insisted that I would be unable to make these appearances during the tape schedule.
There were several other issues related to the tape schedule and taping itself which were unfair to the staff and crew of Divorce Court, as well as me. For instance, “we no longer will be able to pay for the holiday luncheon” stated Fox. Divorce Court has one catered meal the entire season, the Christmas holiday luncheon, before hiatus. This would be cut out if I were to be paid the small increase. This would not be fair to the staff and crew.
Not only have I been impacted but my personal assistant Princess and my daughter, Darlene Allen. Darlene was head of the wardrobe department. She too now has been terminated. I bring up these issues not out of the desire to seek any legal actions toward Fox, but to raise awareness, to appreciate cultural differences, and diversity.
I thank Fox for the last seven years, for the opportunity, for the exposure. I also thank Fox for refusing to pay me what I know I was worth. It set me free to ascend to higher ground. To go beyond before. I firmly believe that God has a better plan for my life.
I thank my family, my friends, my fellow church members, and my fans. Thank you for your love and support. Thank you for watching Divorce Court. Thank you for allowing me into your homes, your lives, and your hearts for seven years. Don’t shut off that dial. Keep watching, I have not left. Eyes have not seen, ears have not heard, what good things God has in store for me. Stay tuned for more. In the words of Maya Angelou, “And still I rise.”

Car Accident! YIPES!

January 21st, 2007

Chris & I were in a car accident! OMG! But we are both ok. Thank the Lord!
Now, how do I begin this story…
Well, first off, Chris and I love the mountains and we planned since last week to head up there this Sunday morning. Weather reports warned to expect snow on Saturday - and it snowed. So, we thought we were good for a go on Sunday morning (this morning.) Saturday night I had a dream that gave me pause about the trip. I asked Chris whether he still thought we should head up and he said “yes” so I chose not to share the dream with him. We cleaned up, ate, packed up and headed out. As we pulled out of the drive, I checked for my wallet and found that I had forgotten it. I asked Chris to pull back into the driveway so that I could go in and look for it. As he pulled back in, we sort of slipped around on the snow in the driveway, that reminded me of my dream and after I returned to the car I thought I should share it with Chris before we started up the mountain.
We were pulling out onto the freeway (I-70) in our Honda Civic, driving in the left-hand lane when I started the story. And y’all know how I take my time telling a good story (this one included) :) Anyhoo, the dream went like this:

Chris and I were near the San Andreas fault line on vacation. There were earthquake rumblings and experts were saying that THE BIG ONE was going to happen within a few days. Well, natives of the state were hesitant saying that they hear this kind of thing all of the time and that we shouldn’t be nervous; but for some reason I still was. So, I told Chris (in the dream) “We need to leave now. We should not be here. Let’s not tempt fate.” He was not convinced for 2 more days. Only after we got stuck on an elevator during a small quake did he agree that we should pack up and go home. But by then, the highways were packed with people and we ended up getting stuck there and died when THE BIG ONE hit. (End of Dream.)

(Back in the car…) Chris says, “So, its MY fault we died in the quake?” I said, “Yes. You wouldn’t listen to me. I was warning you of danger and if you had listened we would have made it out of there before THE BIG ONE hit.” He said, “Of course it would be MY fault!!” We both started laughing. “Even in your dreams its MY fault.” He said with a smile. “So, why are you telling me this? Are you saying we should not be out here on these roads in this weather?” I replied, “Well I don’t know exactly. One may have nothing to do with the other. But I am saying that the lesson of my dream was that we ’should not tempt fate.’” Just then, a pickup truck ahead of us in the center lane started to slip into the far right-hand lane. I pointed to it and said, “See! And that’s a truck! A truck, and its slipping around on these roads. Do you think we should just turn back?” As I was asking the question, that very same truck bounced off of the railing on the right-hand said of the road and slid over 4 lanes of traffic right in front of us. I said, “We’re going to hit him.” I looked over to make sure Chris had his belt on. Then I looked back and said again, “We’re going to hit him.” And we did. We t-boned the truck. The airbags deployed as they were suppose to function, and our seat-belts functioned as they were suppose to function. Shortly afterward as we were waiting for the police, another accident happened just a few yards from us! I turned to Chris and I said, “Do you see! Its just like my dream! We were not suppose to tempt fate!” Chris smiled looking back at me and said, “Yeah, great job Carole! Next time, why don’t you use your powers for good and go pick some lottery numbers or something.” I decided to shut up at that point. Because I knew this would be a story I could repeat to him for DECADES to come!!! Lucky Chris, huh! :)

Needless to say, we are both ok and loving each other back at home - glad to be alive! Thank the Lord! But check out the pictures below… I can’t believe that is our car!

Car Accident 1
Car Accident 2
Car Accident 3
Car Accident 4
Car Accident 5